Baby Steps

I haven't written in ages. I have thought about it heaps of times. The main reason keeping me from writing is fear. Fear that what I have to say doesn't matter. Fear that what I write won't make a difference. Fear that I will look silly. Fear that my voice will be silenced by the deafening noise of the world around me. But I have decided to start writing again anyway. Even if no one reads it. Because maybe, the process of writing is more for me. If I somehow process life better because I wrote it down, then it was worth the effort.

I've been thinking about baby steps in regards to life lately. Honestly, baby steps frustrate me. I want to get to the point as quickly as possible. None of this A-Z business. Let's get to Z already. Life doesn't work that way. It is messy and complicated. I have dreams and desires that I want to see fulfilled. They seem almost unattainable. Even if I do start out and take that baby step, will it even go anywhere? That is the thing though. If you don't take that first step, you will for sure go nowhere.

This last year I took baby steps in regards to my health and weight. Hormone issues and stress have taken a toll on my body. I even gave up on ever being a healthy size a couple of years ago. But I have two kids who are super active. I need to keep up with them. So I took a baby step a year ago today to better my health. It has been a hard road. I am finally seeing the fruit of my efforts. I'm down two pant sizes and 40 pounds. I have a long road to go still. I wouldn't be were I am today if I hadn't made that first baby step. I'm glad I did. Seeing the results has given me the courage to continue on this journey.

It has also given me courage to take steps in other areas of my life. Writing this blog is part of it. I need to take baby steps again in my writing. Get those creative juices flowing again. I know where I want this writing to take me. I can't get there without taking some tiny steps in the right direction. This won't be a weight loss or fitness blog. Though my journey may come up along the way. I still have a lot I want to share about fostering and adopting, specifically for the single lady. I'm not sure where this blog will take me. I hope you will decide to come along with me on this writing journey. I have a lot on my heart that I want to share.