If you have known me for a while, you know that I think a lot. Or as one of my friends puts it, I'm "in my head a lot". :) I'm constantly processing information, trying to figure things out. My brain keeps me awake many a nights. Over the last few months, I've had many "why" questions floating around in my brain. I don't usually get any answers; but occasionally, God surprises me with one.
Last night, Christmas night, I was cleaning up the kitchen. I was feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. My house has been a disaster for a while now, and I can't seem to catch up on anything. I started crying. I love my girls dearly, but I'm never sure if I am doing anything quite right. I feel like I'm doing everything half way. When I get to this point of exhaustion, I always begin to talk to God and ask questions. This time the question was "God why did you pick me to be a foster parent?" And believe it or not, I felt like I heard an answer. It was a simple response. "Because you would say yes." He knew that I would be willing to do His will for me. It then made me wonder, am I missing out on anything else because I might not say yes? I hope my heart will always stay open to God and His will, that I would be willing to say "yes" no matter the personal cost.
How many of us are missing out on amazing life changing experiences or God moments because we wouldn't say "yes" to God? How differently would the world be/look if we all said "yes"? Saying yes is so much harder than saying no. Saying no keeps us in a place of comfort and familiarity. It also keeps us bound to fear. Fear is why we say no more often than not. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of no longer being in control. When I received the phone call last month asking if I would be willing to take in two beautiful little girls, I almost said "No". Why? Because I was scared spitless! I had no idea what to expect. But I felt like God told me that if I turned them down, it would be strictly out of fear. So I took a leap of faith and said "yes". I'm glad I did. Even with the disaster of a house, dishes that never end, clothes that still need to be washed, and a social life that has disappeared.
I encourage you to say YES next time God asks you to step out. You never know what blessing or adventure could be around the corner.
