Little Man

I haven't blogged in ages, mainly because I've been so busy. Life with two little ones keeps me on my toes and my house a mess. lol 

Little Man has been in my care 6 months now. In some ways, it seems like he just arrived. In other ways, it feels like he has been with us forever. I can't imagine life without him. He brings me great joy. Violet loves him dearly. Every morning when she wakes up, she asks about him. Before she goes to sleep at night, she wants to know where he is. She freely and willingly will go up to him and give him hugs and kisses. She tells him that she loves him. It is the most precious thing to see!! Of course, because she is two, she has her moments where she will tell him to go away or take a toy out of his hands. Even in these incidents, I see a relationship blooming. 

There are many aspects of Little Man's situation that I don't feel like I can share yet with the general population. Hopefully, soon I will be able to. I can say this, God has been with us every step of the way. When he came into care, I prayed that God would go before us and prepare the way. I feel like we have experienced grace and favor with the case worker and GAL. God told me in January not to worry about the outcome. He gave me the verse Exodus 14:14, "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." I have a tendency to want to fight and wrestle with God and the system. I want to control things. I can't though. There is nothing about the foster care system that I can control. I have to choose to trust God and let Him do His thing. I have been learning what it means to "be still". For me, it means not allowing my mind to worry about all the issues with the case. When I do begin to worry, I make myself stop and pray. I ask God to replace the worry with His peace. I begin to thank God for what He has done. It is slowly changing my perspective. I am letting the Lord fight for us. 

We had court yesterday. It was a permanency hearing. This is where they discuss what the bio parents have done thus far and what they think would be best for the child in the future. The judge agreed with CPS to make some big goal changes. These decisions are for the good, I believe. We still have a long road ahead of us. However, I know God is in this. He is with us. He is fighting our battles for us. He loves Little Man more than I can ever imagine. He will protect him. Before court, I was praying and asking for favor with the judge. We found out several hours before our hearing that we were changing to a different judge. Now, I'm not sure if this is normal for this kind of thing to happen in this county or not. All I know is that shortly after I heard that, I felt like it was a God thing. After the results of the permanency hearing, I believe it was God. 

The next 5 months will be very interesting. I'm not sure what exactly will happen or how the bio parents will respond to what the judge said. But none of that is in my control. I don't need to worry about it. God is going before us and preparing the way. He will take care of my little family. I'm incredibly thankful that God brought Little Man into my life.

Little Man just turned 1 year old! He is beginning to love table food. He isn't fully walking yet. However, it won't be long. He has taken 2-3 steps at a time. He loves anything that makes music. It is so cute to watch him dance to the beat. He has 7 teeth now, with more coming soon. He thinks it is funny to copy Violet when she is being silly and making noises. He has also started following her around when they play. Super cute! He really is a good baby and pretty chill. 

Keep praying for the case and for the decision makers. Pray that I will continue to rest in Him and let Him fight for us.